Saturday, July 25, 2009

Hanging Up My Gi

When can you say that you have truly failed at anything?
Is it when you lose your will to continue fighting?
Are you a failure when you lose capability to make into reality this "change"?
Is failing being a dead fish flowing with the current?


Success is also a very strange commodity.
What are the standards for success?
A poor man, at his weak, dirty, hungry, dumb and shadowed state, would see success in the simpler things. Unlike a CEO, earning more than he needs to feed his family til his great grand child's generation, having more cars than he can drive in a day, a house that can fit hundreds of HIGH-CLASS people in special gatherings of joy and of sorrow, won't see all the blessings that success has given to him, can we say that he has not failed?

It sometimes just sets our standards to live up to.
A very successful man, is FULL of success because he knows all the goals or standards for success that he has complied to. Confidence and satisfaction oozes from his aura. He may not really be as awesome as he really is, but, the fact that he is that enlightened to look at the world in a extremely positive productive and well managed state.
A WORLD WHERE EVERY ACTION THAT HAPPENS, IT MAY BE DONE BY A PERSON INTENTIONALLY OR UNINTENTIONALLY, WOULD BE RESOLVED IN THE MOST SUCCESSFUL OF WAYS, MAKING ALL THE PEOPLE ALL HAVE THIS AURA OF HOPE, LOVE, PEACE, COMPETENCE AND INCREASED JOY, FOR EVERYONE'S SMILE WOULD BE AVAILABLE EVEN TO THE MOST HURT OF SOULS.
ecstatic.



i've been through quite a lot of shit lately, i have to admit, i aint no angel from above. i may have dug up a few bones from those i have buried in the past, bones that i have long wanted to forget.

time has a way of catching up to you. parang naluma ka na.
tangina, dati pakiramdam ako freshest, juiciest hardware and software around. doing all my shit without giving a fuck because i was just freakin awesome. i had many friends. great friends that i would jump a bullet for.
ngayon sino ka na ba pipoy?
hmm? grades: pasado, delikado sa drawing.
love: totally in love
physical stress/fatigue: low (leading to increased body insulation)
emotional stress/BAD VIBES: extremes of high to low. (also leading to increased mass of being)
drive/will: i love waking up in the morning... that's a good start.. :)
success: Hardly, potentially handicaped
failure: i see these as bloopers. or even "alay" nalang for the "gods". ahaha :))
as i tell my mistakes, i see my problems, the more problems i solve, the clearer i can see. i think.
i think til the voice in my head starts to sound as if i'm screaming. not knowing the difference between my toughts and the words i utter, for both sound as one. I can tell you what i have tought of in a way that you won't have to think about it, but it opens a window in your mind that gets you unknowingly thinking.

para sayo ang laban na to.




*image: a sword, left in it's holster and idle, will degrade, rust, lose value and virtually be garbage. iron well used shines bright.*



now, what am i to face now and in the near future? would i see these challenges as a standard for my personal success in the event of my completion of such course? yes, i always do. it clears my head to what i got to do. the smallest reason for such things to bring me to greatness would leave a pretty medal for me to have "increased in value".



the day i hang up my gi, is the day i believe i can no longer do anything to see this change that i can make happen. that day that even lady luck would turn her head away from me, and my grave has been dug. to take that much shit that you'll need to flood tagaytay with crap til it comes shooting out our roof. i tell you, you'll need a LOT OF SHIT to get me here... lol..


we are all special, see how you are, and be special to other people, make the world more euphoric. babylon...




haille selasie




IV-XX

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